Dear Ahmad Ayub...

i do admit i act childishly hari tu.. aku pon tak faham kenapa aku marah sangat sampai aku boleh blah jalan and tinggalkn dia macam 2 je.. and hari tu dye dah nak balik rumah dye kat batu pahat sebab raya haji and aku pulak hari sabtu nak balik rumah aku kat melaka which means aku takkan dapat jumpe dye selalu macam aku kat cni (dye duduk area bangi n aku serdang)..

ntah kenapa aku bengang when got a phone calls from his friend asking for the house key.. ak nga lepak2 ngan dye tyme 2.. tros dye anta aku balik kolej.. at that moment..aku pon tak faham ngan tindakan aku.. aku tibe2 sulking.. i suppose to understand that he actually living with his friend.. aku rasa macam aku taknak lepaskan dye dari pandangan mata aku.. aku taknak dye jauh dari sisi aku.. seriously selama aku hidup ni lah 1st tyme aku rasa macam ni kat sumone.. ni lah 1st tyme dalam sejarah aku kapel and mentioning perkataan 'kawen' (bukan plan nak kawin or ape) sebab before ni aku akan elakkan perkataan tu dengan mana-mana ex ak before.

i do regret my action.. seriously.. and later that night he call me.. dye cakap memula tujuan dye call memang nak marah aku.. but then he just cant... ak mintak maaf dengan dye malam 2.. banyak kali..  tapi sampai sekarang aku tak faham dengan tindakan aku sendiri.. why did i act that way when i know i will not have a chance to see him in these few days or maybe weeks?.. he told me that dye rasa tak dihargai lepas dye datang sini jumpe aku, bawak aku klua jalan2 makan2.. and all the sudden aku buat dye macam 2.. i do love him soo damn much~ and now im missing him too much.. 

i know you already forgive me B.. i do regret doing such thing to you.. the person i love..i promise to you that this wont happen again.. 

im sorry... i love you and i miss you~